What would you take back

I shouldnt of turned down my chance to go play college football

 

I can't narrow it down to only one thing. If there was one major, horrific thing that I did that I could change, it would have to be this... I wouldn't blame myself for being raped when I was 14.

Doing that snowballed into all sorts of other horrible things I did following the experience.

(sorry if it's too serious.)

 

Wow, sorry to hear that Sky... but I am glad to see you are a strong, able woman now. I have a new-found respect for you.

My biggest regret? Hmmmm..... I would have to say being mean to my little brothers and sister when I was young. I love them dearly and it really hits home now that I am so far away from them. We all get along fantastic now, but I wonder how it could be if I hadn't been such a putz then...

Mani

 

Wow, you really opened up to us...

Wow, you really opened up to us...HTS. Sorry to hear that.
I am glad you have become a stronger person and learned to move on with life and not let it hold you back.

My biggest regret is not being able to take that free offer to go back to Vietnam 4 years ago and trace my family roots. Not knowing who my real father was and only knowing my mom by a piece of paper. I never dwelled on it till I was given the oppertunity to go but didn't.

Hopefully I will go back to my ophanage where I was born and see if I can find any family.

 

I regret not getting to know my mother better before she passed in 92 from cancer. And I also regret the fact that She will never get to meet my son, and that he never got to meet her.

 

That hits home here, Arg. I had a big scare with my mom when she was diagnosed with breast cancer. She moved in with me during her chemo and those are some of the best times I've ever had with my mom. She would come home a little tipsy from her treatments and she was so funny and fun.

She lost her hair and we went hat and wig shopping together.


For fun we watched movies and chewed bubble gum. I would buy the big bucket of bubble gum from Sam's club and she and I would both cram as much bubble gum in our mouths as we could and blow bubbles.

Then when the gum ran out of flavor we would start again with new gum.

The very best picture I have ever taken of my mom was when she was really sick from the chemo. I put my kids in the tub with her and they washed her with cloths. The sun was coming through the window and the look on her face was like she was in heaven. Taht's also her doctor's favorite picture.

I often have a hard time appreciating my mom, even recently, but you just brought back some memories from a time when I was afraid I would lose her.

Thanks arg, for helping me get my priorities straight again.

 

I would not have taken drugs.

I think that had the bigest negetive influnce on my life. I spent a solid year in rehabs, got kicked out of the house when I was 17 and was not allowed to return for many years. All of the bad things they say will happen if you take drugs has happened to me. I have been arrested, gone to jail, and almost died of an OD once. Taking drugs has to be the single worst decision I have ever made in life.


There are lots of things that I would have liked to of done diffrently, but those are the very same things that shaped me into what I am today, and for the most part I am pretty happy with who I am.

Like Willy Nelson said............

I could cry for all the time I wasted
but that's a waste of time and tears
and if I could go back in time some how
I know just what I'd change
but there's nothing I can do about it now.

 

CDL is just about my only family.

 

Oh my. It turned my stomach to read that last night half. Its hard for me to admit, but its bringing tears to my eyes thinking that happened to you and at such a young age. It just sickens me beyond belief that people are capable of such things. Although it would never be compensation, I just hope the bastard paid with everything they had. Again im sorry that you had to go through it, but im truely happy you were able to turn it all around.

I wouldnt even know were to begin myself, but after reading many of these I relize once again how very very easy my life has been. I regret taking it for granted so much, and not taking the time to appreciate it.

 

I'm with Dane. drugs. did a few in my day... well, actually, pretty much all of high school. Committed a few additional crimes along the way, did a little time in jail... could have been as much as 5 years though, I helped myself out by going thru a 30-day rehab.

I'm not unhappy with where I am now, but I can't help but wonder where I would be without the drug past. And I swear to you, my memory has suffered significantly, especially long-term. (and it's not old age either ) It's spooky sometimes.